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Tuesday, April 28, 2009 @ 6:34 AM
`bad news

yesterday in the middle of my lab, my sis call
i tot sth bad happen, she ask me for some office stuff
den ok relaly got bad news she jus told me
ah ma may die anytime so be mentally prepared
wen i heard this sentence i nearly wanted to cry on the spot le. i jus kept quiet and calm myself down den she ask me if i heard wad she said den i say ya
after which i sms ah bin ask me if i cna have a real hug or not
i think he know that i really need support le
my lab end at 4
den after which we go to simei
at dover mrt platform he ask me about my ah ma den i cannot take it den cry le
den on the way to simei, i grab his hand and keep touching and pinching cause i keep thinking of my ah ma hand
ya although its different but i jus keep comparing and keep dropping tears
ah bin kept quiet and let me torture his hand
ya. after that walk to hosp saw jojo
den went beside ah ma bed and ask mama HOW come the doc say she will die anytime
doc say her big brain and small brain is damaged hence will die and blood vessel burst
den totally nth to say le
keep crying while i sit on ah ma bed and hold her hand and cry
and keep calling her to ask her to wake up
ya haha
after that go home
i must learn to accept the fact that she will go soon
so i must be strong and accept this fact
ok la stop here le bye





Sunday, April 26, 2009 @ 10:44 PM
`a post to my ah ma

this blog post is dedicated to my dearest grandma

sorri for always throwing temper at u wen u shouted at me
sorri for taking u for granted wen u were healthy
sorri for everything i cause u to be sad and angry
sorri
i really sorri
i dun wan u to sleep le
i miss ur nagging at my area very messy, my table very messy, always make ur kitchen a mess
i miss seeing u waiting for me at the house void deck for school bus to come
i miss u bringing me around and showing off how pretty am i
i miss ur complains
i miss ur scolding
i miss ur extremely smooth hand
i miss ur disgusting food
i miss the extreme way u dote me
i miss those times which u brought me up wen papa and mama are working
i miss ur conversation with me in hainanese
i miss the way u protect me from papa whacking
i miss the way u tried to help me by telling lies
i miss every single thing about u
u may not be the perfect grandma
i may not be the perfect granddaughter
but u & me is the perfect match
i miss u. dun continue to sleep le hao ma?
please wake up
i relaly miss u and sorri for taking u for granted all this years
dun sleep le i wan to talk to u
be it jus listen to u mumbling i ok le
jus wake up hao ma?
see u lie there motionless break my heart into million of pieces
see u coughing suffering away all i could do is cry
i felt so useless. i know u wan to see me be strong but u also must be strong and wake up get well soon
i relaly miss u
i dun wan u to leave me.
i wan u to see me get into uni grad from uni
i wan u to be by myside
i know i am selfish but i dun wan to see u suffer
i love u
i really mean it and i really do
please dun leave me hao ma? please wake up hao ma?
i love u



my grandma condition now still in coma, didnt wake up today at all
stop here le
bye





@ 1:14 PM
`2 blow in one day

yesterday i had 2 blows in 1 day
i totally cannot take it
was wishing ah bin was there for me but he went to batam so cant blame him

first blow,
girl girl went missing, i cried once i heard it cause i dun wan her to be like chopin
den i calm down and think where she gone to, den i go to mama area. den long story
den i found her
ya

second blow
ah ma went into coma, she got second stroke, the moment i heard it, i rush to hosp to go and find her
i keep crying non stop
i wan her to keep scolding me
her second daughter cried while talking to her
keep crying cause my grandma cannot talk [properly le
i also keep crying
i stayed over at hosp to acc my ah ma with my biggest sis
tired sia
the chair not comfy to sleep on
ya


today went back home around 12.30 bath hao le still need to do housework
so ya nvm la yup

and i must thanks all those who had been with me yesterday be it jus sms concern i still wna to thank u all
ya. ok la stop here bye





Monday, April 20, 2009 @ 7:22 PM
`random tots

its indeed very true that at the start of the r/s is call the honeymoon period
the guy will treat the girl very well and sweet
den slowly the guy will treat the girl with less sweeter and not as well as b4
the girl, being the more devoted one, will be ok with it and tolerate it
guy will slowly take girl for granted, like will alwasy think the girl will by his side forever

if all the r/s could always stay at honeymoon period, caring understanding, sweetness
wun have any more divorce, and breakup

i dun like ppl take me for granted, be it in r/s or as friend
i really hate it.

i have high expectation jus that i didnt say it out
i have high hope jus that i didnt show it out
i have high tolerance and i have limit to it
i have feeling jus that i trying to cover it
i am the mirror image of u
imagine the way u treat me being treated u back
how will u feel?


haha jus some tots that jus pop up in my head
and read some stuff online ya haha
yup ok la stop here
bye





@ 2:28 PM
`first day of school

haha first day of school
DOZING OFF zzzzzzzzzz
too tired. haha
met xz and jojo, gave xz her present. she like it? haha
ya i handmade a scarf for her yup.
haha ok la trying to continue to grab all the things that are being taught to me. yup haha ok la stop here bye





Thursday, April 16, 2009 @ 9:52 PM
`today

today went out with dear dear
but dear dear come my house void deck to find me first
at first he waiting at the void deck den he call me telling me he stomach pain
go mrt use
den i tell him. u come up my house to use lor. den after he use
he ask me ur uncle eat le ma? i say garlic bread should be enough ba
den he jus tell me i go cook noodle for him ba.
den yup. he cooked hao le den my uncle WILLINGLY eat. den ok lor den we both went out

first stop to CGH, he wanted to buy sth for my ah ma den i tell him dun nid la fan zhen he wun go in buy for?
den he reason with me first but i still win yup
den pei ah ma
den wen ah ma say she tired den i left ya


second stop to TM, we went to buy tic first
ks singaporean haha
den go pizza hut eat, i onli eat the 3/4 of the pasta and drink finish the hot chocolate totally no appetite cause i sick from ytd till now.
den after that walk around.
den yup. go CS
den walk around, give dear dear his watch.
den dear dear also surprise me, by buying a mug for me wen i was waiitng for him cause wen i was at the shop, i keep pointing that mug cause CUTE den IT IS MAMEGOMA. yup it is a seal ya
den head down to tm again, go to zinc to find a bag for me, cause he wan to buy a bag for me
den keep choosing
den yup den left den go watch movie, 17 AGAIN is HILARIOUS but storyline er not so gd.
den went back to zinc to buy bag, finally choose the bag. yup
ok la shall show u all the pics haha. yup










Tuesday, April 14, 2009 @ 12:19 AM
`girl girl and cotton

ok. i used to calling ah bin rabbit den sometime i will jus out of my mind call cotton as BB. hm... nvm
shall show u all COTTON and girl girl pic
nose to nose e wor








yup cute rite? haha
dead. dead.
there are SO many things for me to DO
buy present. COMPLETE present. ROAR
dead. *bang*





Saturday, April 11, 2009 @ 11:27 PM
`stupid boring things

i was blog hopping around and came to see a link haha
den do quiz lor

How do you behave when in love?
You could win the Nobel Peace Prize for being such a good lover! You are a truly understanding person, and put all of your trust into your relationship while also maintaining your independence. You would be many a man's perfect woman.


Your Pet's Name
Choosing a name such as Blackie, Spot or White means that you are fixed by society's rules and traditions. You weigh out consequences carefully before taking any action. You are reasonable and think thoroughly before making a decision.


The Real You
You are a very serious person. You tend to be quiet and well behaved, and you don't have a great deal of self-confidence. You prefer to be alone rather than with friends and that could make you a little less interesting to certain types of guys. You are very attractive in an individual kind of way, and this means it can take people a little while to get to like you.
You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.
Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.


What's your personality love style?
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.


Your Hidden Talent
The Artist
You love freedom and want to follow your heart's desires. You might not be at your best when dealing with other people. Once you are given the opportunity to work your chosen way, your gift will shine. A tip for you is not to concentrate too much on your own work, but widen your focus and consider the opinions of other people.





Thursday, April 9, 2009 @ 5:16 PM
`some stuff

Rule One:
If you pull into my driveway and honk you'd better be delivering a package, because you're sure not picking anything up.

Rule Two:
You do not touch my daughter in front of me. You may glance at her, so long as you do not peer at anything below her neck. If you cannot keep your eyes or hands off of my daughter's body, I will remove them.

Rule Three:
I am aware that it is considered fashionable for boys of your age to wear their trousers so loosely that they appear to be falling off their hips. Please don't take this as an insult, but you and all of your friends are complete idiots. Still, I want to be fair and open minded about this issue, so I propose this compromise:

You may come to the door with your underwear showing and your pants ten sizes too big, and I will not object. However, in order to ensure that your clothes do no, in fact come off during the course of your date with my daughter, I will take my electric nail gun and fasten your trousers securely in place to your waist.

Rule Four:
I'm sure you've been told that in today's world, sex without utilizing a "Barrier method" of some kind can kill you. Let me elaborate, when it comes to sex, I am the barrier, and I will kill you.

Rule Five:
It is usually understood that in order for us to get to know each other, we should talk about sports, politics, and other issues of the day.

Please do not do this. The only information I require from you is an indication of when you expect to have my daughter safely back at my house, and the only word I need from you on this subject is: "early."

Rule Six:
I have no doubt you are a popular fellow, with many opportunities to date other girls. This is fine with me as long as it is okay with my daughter.

Otherwise, once you have gone out with my little girl, you will continue to date no one but her until she is finished with you. If you make her cry, I will make you cry.

Rule Seven:
As you stand in my front hallway, waiting for my daughter to appear, and more than an hour goes by, do not sigh and fidget. If you want to be on time for the movie, you should not be dating. My daughter is putting on her makeup, a process than can take longer than painting the Golden Gate Bridge.
Instead of just standing there, why don't you do something useful, like changing the oil in my car?

Rule Eight:
The following places are not appropriate for a date with my daughter: Places where there are beds, sofas, or anything softer than a wooden stool. Places where there is darkness. Places where there is dancing, holding hands, or happiness. Places where the ambient temperature is warm enough to induce my daughter to wear shorts, tank tops, midriff T-shirts, or anything other than overalls, a sweater, and a goose down parka - zipped up to her throat.

Movies with a strong romantic or sexual theme are to be avoided; movies which features chain saws are okay. Hockey games are okay. Old folks homes are better.

Rule Nine:
Do not lie to me. I may appear to be a potbellied, balding, middle-aged, dimwitted has-been. But on issues relating to my daughter, I am the all-knowing, merciless god of your universe.

If I ask you where you are going and with whom, you have one chance to tell me the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth. I have a shotgun, a shovel, and five acres behind the house. Do not trifle with me.

Rule Ten:
Be afraid. Be very afraid. It takes very little for me to mistake the sound of your car in the driveway for a chopper coming in over a rice paddy near Hanoi. When my Agent Orange starts acting up, the voices in my head frequently tell me to clean the guns as I wait for you to bring my daughter home.

As soon as you pull into the driveway you should exit the car with both hands in plain sight. Speak the perimeter password, announce in a clear voice that you have brought my daughter home safely and early, then return to your car - there is no need for you to come inside. The camouflaged face at the window is mine.

But, before you even think of dating my daughter, you'll have to fill out the Application for Permission to Date My Daughter.




FUNNY or not? haha if my dad do this, wahhhhhhhhhh haha. imagine haha
still got another story

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and
said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly.
Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.
Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know
what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly,
why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away
the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we
didn't
talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what
had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory
answer, she had lost my heart to a lovely girl called Dew.
I didn't love her anymore, I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated
that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.
She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent
ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for
her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I
had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front
of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually
a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several
weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something
at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell
asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew.
When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did
not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want
anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She
requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a
life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a
months time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to
recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.
She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of
our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going
crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her
odd request.

I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and
thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to
face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was
explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we
both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy
in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain.>From the bedroom to
the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in
my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, don't tell our son about
the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the
office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my
chest.. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I
hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realised she
was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair
was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I
wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy
returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to
me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of
intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to
carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday work-out made
me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few
dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my
dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so
thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.
Suddenly it hit me, .. she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her
heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum
out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an
essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer
and hugged him tightly.
I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at
this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom,
through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck
softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, it was just like our
wedding day.
But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I
Held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school.
I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked
intimacy.

I drove to office... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the
door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked
upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not
want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished. Then touched my forehead. Do you have a
fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I
won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I
didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each
other any more. Now I realise that since I carried her into my home on
our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.
Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed
the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my
wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and
wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a
relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property , the money in
the bank, blah..blah..blah. These create an environment conducive
for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be
your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that
build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you, but if you do, you
just might save a marriage.

- Author unknown -

moral of the story? do sweet things even after having a baby in order for a marriage last. haha yup
if my next time my hubby dun do this, i sure very sad e. haha
dunno see hwo first ba haha


Beware of this 6 love busters that can destroy your relationships.

1: Selfish Demands - Remember that love is give and lust is take. If the person really love the other person whether as a friend or bgr, the person should not always made selfish demands that benefits themselve only. Even if its for both to gain, the demander should consider the other person's point of view and how he or she feels. If not, what is the difference between taking something from others for personal gain?

2: Disrespectful Judgements - Do not speak out disrecpectful judgements like hurling abuse e.g. you stupid, idiot, lousy and etc. Although sometimes for that person's good sake, you may have to say the person; avoid using abusive and sensitive words. Remember that your intention is to bring up the person and not bring down. So hurling abusive words will contradict to your intention. Also, we human have no rights to judge one another becasue we ourselves made mistakes and want our mistakes to be forgiven too. Treat others as what you want others to treat you.

3: Angry Outburst - Try your best not to throw your temper around, even though sometimes i know its quite hard to control. Just do your best to overcome it. If what the person did is too much, talk to the person seriously starting from the root of the problem! Not bringing in other no link stuffs into the conversation and see who did the most number of errors against each other. After that come out with a solution and made a promised to that. I can assure you that after you do that, both will feel a lot better; relationship will be strengthen. Remember this, What's the point of winning an argument but lost a relationship?

4: Dishonesty - You have heard that honesty is the best policy. Honesty lead to a clear road map to resove conflict and meets important emotional needs. While dishonesty is offensive and lead to many troubles as you know one lie leads to many lies.

Why people lie?
- to protect themselve.
- to look good.
- to avoid trouble (blame shifting).
- out of compulsion.

In the end, the truth will be shown. Who will lose out? A liar or a truthful person? Just a lie can destroy a person's reputation which takes years and effort to build. So, don't lie. Speak the truth.

5: Annoying Habits - Watch out for annoying habits like shaking of legs, digging of nose, speaking of vulgarities and etc. Yes, you may say that its the person's character. However, if the habits are bad and irritating, it is not pleasant for others especially your partner may get pissed off one day and argument starts.

Here's an example. A married couple, the husband has an annoying habits by leaving empty snack bags, bottles and magazines all over the place. The wife, however is a bit pissed or annoyed by it because she has to clear it up everytime. The point is this, the wife can choose to express her feelings to her husband or to keep it inside first. If the wife express her feelings to her spouse, both knows what's going on and so a solution and an agreement can be met. If not, the wife bottles up the anger, hurt and irritation inside and what happens if she can't take it anymore?

Another example will be let's say a business meeting settings. A person is meeting two or more clients and the speaker keeps shaking his or her legs. Is this considered annoying habits towards the clients? Will this bring a good image for the person?

6: Independent Behaviour - This is quite serious. Sometimes a person can be too focus by their own tasks and get so focus that they forget the people around them. E.g. taking others for granted, ignoring how others think and feel, overly dominant. Who likes to be ordered around by others? No one right? So the person have to give a second thought for how others felt especially in a bgr or even married couples. Talk to each other. Remember, Communications is the foundation of any relationships.

I have heard about many divorce cases are people saying that they are not compatible with each other. What nonsense is this!? If they are not compatible and why they did get married in the first place? And they are not willing to sacrifice themselve and make themselves compatible. Come to talk about sacrifice, remember at start that love is about giving; give out of own expense. In this world, who is compatible to each other? It is compatible if you think it is and not compatible if you think its not. I think that a wonderful relationship is where both party appreciate and enjoy each other's different world; interests, hobbies, likes, thoughts, food and etc. Isn't it nice? =D

Here is the two important Policies to follow. If you follows these two policies and avoid the 6 love buster factors, your relationship with your bf, gf or spouse will be strengthen and more loving.

Policy of Radical Honesty

Reveal as much information as you know about yourself to the person. E.g. thoughts, feelings, habits, like, dislikes, hobbies, plans, goals, food and etc. Let the other party know you inside out and vice versa. When you all understand each other, isn't it great so both will do the right things that pleased each others?

Policy of Joint Agreement

Never do anything without enthusiastic agreement between you and your spouse. Remember, Marriage is a Partnership! Not Proprietorship!

This is very important because when Husband and Wife make decisions together, they become 1 Team. A very strong team.

I give you an example. I believe you all know that sometimes when a child in a family is naughty like picky of food, or want to buy toys, one of the parents agree while other disagree? Or when a dad wants to discipline his child, the child will always run to the mum for protection? This may look nothing but remember that a small broken thread that destroy the whole cloth. After a long period of time, the dad and mum will tends to disagree and argue with each other and what happens after that when the problem is not been solved? I think you know the answer.

No matter what, both should talk and come up a decision. When both agrees, their relationship will become stronger. When a child is faced with disciplinary actions, if he or she run to the mum, his or her mum will bring the child to the dad for punishment. So the child will know that he or she cannot escape punichment when mistakes are made; avoid making mistakes in future. Isn't it better that way?





@ 8:21 AM
`freak

i hate those freak who keep complaining things to my parents, u know why? cause they are coward.
if u not happy with me, jus slap it at my face dun nid to go and complain to my parents. this shows totally that u had no way to deal with me which prove that u are useless.
the more u complain the more i hate u and look down on u.
i dun give a damn about being a district leader or not. if because of this and u keep wanting to make my life difficult for me, den i rather slap u and say i dun give a damn
who the bloody farking u are to complain ur unhappiness to my parents or sister
even though u are my sister so called best friend SO WAD. u never gain my full trust in u, cause of ur typical complain complain complain.
u think i like u? HELL NO, cant wait to see u GO.
if u are that good PROVE it TO ME, and i will respect u and do wadever u want
BUT U CANT so sad.
to me u FAILED as being my leader, as A lEADER must CONSTANTLY care out for her members even wen the other members NEED her EVEN MORE.
so wad if u got my parents backing
so wad if u are close to my sister, that doesnt give u any privilege in gaining my trust
and u should JOLLY WELL know that MY TRUST is very HARD to gain. yet u keep doing things to make me hate u even more.
yes i admit the job u assign to me i didnt do, BUT HOW THE FREAKINGLY I DO WEN U NEVER GIVE ME HER HP CONTACT FOR ME TO CALL HER AND DO THE SPEECH? U TELL ME
still complain other things that never even occur, WAD ARE U TRYING TO DO?
make my parents scold me even more?
OH SORRI, i dun give a shit wenever they say I MAKE U ANGRY OR WADEVER
u make me totally look down on u and u will never ever GAIN my RESPECT.
u sux to big max.
U SHOULD KNOW WHO AM I TALKING ABOUT.
u are a total loser to me.





Wednesday, April 8, 2009 @ 11:36 AM
`rabbit

i going to get a rabbit this evening.
how my feeling? hm... ok ba? ya
wad am i going to name it? hm... lot list of names for it
legato, snow white, baka, rose, xiao huai dan. hm... dunno haha
later ask my bf to think for me haha. see hwo first ba
cage at dear dear house, later go pick the rabbit up. need to go daiso to buy things. hm.... BUSY BUSY. haha

my grandma was hospitalise last nite, yup, i cried but after knowing the illness i calm down le
yup. is lung infection. talking about which MY UNCLE FALL SICK LE. zzzzzzzzzzzz
i still rmb at the start of this year i got lung infection but my body was strong so i didnt go into hospital. yup haha
last nite went to see my ah ma, see her alive i ok le. yup. cuase i scare she will leave me one day. and i very scare soon. ya.
haha ok la stop here.





Monday, April 6, 2009 @ 11:17 AM
`granted

ppl often take others for granted thats goes for me
didnt really treasure those around me
i can figure out ppl take me for granted however, i didnt notice that i take ppl for granted too
ya den nvm la haha. i have already trying not to take ppl for granted
treasure each and everyone of them as mnuch as i could ya ok la stop here bye





Thursday, April 2, 2009 @ 12:53 AM
`today

haha today went out with dear dear
YEAH! ahha
ok den ok lor. hm.. watch hotel dog
walk around
sleep in the bus
den i keep call him yawn leon repeatedly till i keep saying the same word
haha
i know i very bad XD haha
den after that go home
ya haha
thats all
happy that i can go out with him today ^^


pic taken by my dad at my concert haha






Wednesday, April 1, 2009 @ 12:22 AM
`3 things

ok. i jus read jojo blog
OMG la. she learning how to ride a bic. and me zzzzzzzzzz
since many donkey years ago i say i wan to learn how to ride a bic
end up give up so many times. zzzzzzzzzz
ok so now. i shall determine to learn it
zzzzzzzz

3 things to be done by end of holi
learn how to ride bic,
learn how to swim,
tidy up my room AHHHHHHHHHHHHhh


i must complete this 3 task. haha try ba haha